From 4G to 2G

The sun was gleaming with its rays. I was standing in my usual bus stop and trying to avoid the sunlight even though it's and irony since i work under the sun usually. My restless mind kept looking at my watch thinking that i will be late . Late is something I don't like to add to my character. And the bus came . I with a little struggle managed to get into the bus . It was a Monday morning and usually it's so crowded on Mondays since everyone will be returning to the office from home with a face as if they are been forced to a place they don't like . I am no exception to that feeling and my face was not too alien to that feeling since I have it on my face too . I was standing in that crowded bus . Suddenly a man rose from his seat next to me , then as if it was like a bullet just shot from a gun a man came and sat in that . I was too slow since by the time that man sat I just made up my mind to sit . He was like a 4G connection in the 2G world wen it comes to getting na seat. Suddenly an absolute silence came from somewhere. The only sound was the roaring of the old engine . And there was only one thought in my head too. And a vision , and rest of the things in m head was blurring in the background.That made me think if I was trying to be 4G too.  My routine was programmed. All I have to do in the morning  was get up when the alarm goes off . Rest of the things is programmed like a robot . And the only minute I think after i wake up is when i am in the bus . Like this at this precise moment when one of my hands is in the rail on the top of bus and another hand on the seat for the support to stand straight in that crowd. This is the moment of truth for my everyday. I always think if this is how I going to be further in my life . I see guys much older than me , with shirts tucked in and nice shoes and a bag on the shoulder. At some point I see myself standing there . With the same expression of unhappiness and fear and insecurities I have now which multiplied several year . Then a lightning of thoughts struck my head. A lightning mixed with feeling of fear , anxiety and all the feelings which spills out the adrenaline in me. It was kind of look back moment for me too. 

We live in a fast moving world. Our smartphone is faster, our transportation is faster, our connections are faster (3G,4G). There is a shift from the thought that , earlier it was ‘ we had 24 hours a day ‘ now it shifted to ‘ we just have 24 hours a day’. The shift was that we have to do so much things with this little time . This little time when this earth takes the effort to rotate on its axis. We have started to enjoy less of our time . And we started to live the next moment , not the moment we have , but the moment we are about to have . A faster connections have made us impatient. This impatience have taken its root in all over characters , from waiting in a queue, waiting for a reply, waiting . Waiting. I wonder if this impatience will consume me more and more . And if I will forget to to be here at this precise moment than to be in the next. I have to slowly convince my head that I only have now. The present and hence its called the PRESENT. Slowly slowly , like I learned to walk when I was a toddler , I have to teach myself consciously. Slowly .. In this 4g world I have to learn to be 2G .